MVPuppets...Rulez

Temporarily Angel

As god forbid, I shall not seek happiness for my own but to be there for u,

As angel, I shall not ask for favors but be ready to do one as demand,

I am not allowed to find comfort within you,

But comfort I shall provide as when you need it.

Yet you should know I am just temporarily,

Yet you should aware I too have dignity,

What I provide could be just momentarily pleasure,

But its better than you being toyed at someone's leisure,

I would never judge you or whatever you said and do,

Neither you should judge me too.

Lending an ear to listen, a shoulder to cry on, a hand to grasp, a feeling to care is what I do for you.

What I did outside, nothing gotta with you.

I am not angry nor any hatred.

Yet the trust I have is getting thinner..

All I have for you still a little respect, a much care, a lot of concern ...

and a big fat hope that you will start to grow..

Grow out from your fear and insecurity and obscurities.

Be the person who I see inside of you....

Life is not the end when one love ended.

Nor is life any livelier if you don't love yourself.

Even Angel get frustrated too...

Coz sometimes there's not much I can do.

But smile and care and pray that you knew....

Remember its just be temporarily..

The present of me will glooms,

The care of mine will fade...

Then this angel will be just a memory..

A special Angel just for you...

Finally...

Thank you for the honesty.

It completed everything.

I wasn't wrong. You wasn't right.

At least, you ending it kinda save me.

Coz its not worth it.

Just ironic your loyalty which you proud of.

You just sway in such short period compare over the time we had.

It show how fragile human feeling is,

Regardless how good a person is.

I could not hate you at all

Nor I could think this is all your faults.

Maybe it was my fault to begin..to be so persistent..something I considered now is wrong.

Yes, I would bled and bear the pain.

But smiles craving at the corner of my lips.

I was never wrong..maybe wrong for not trusting myself.

Trust that I more than good for you.

You going to be a memory now..slowly and definitely..

A memory which has so many losses.

Every lost is a lesson learned.

I wish you all the best wishes and good luck in your life.

Coz i think you need it more than me.

Try not to get lost in ur life..

For you know that I am not gonna be there anymore..

Someone You Used to Know

It was helpless anyway

There's nothing much we could do or say

Darling don't you think it's a shame?

that it had to end this way

So here's to say goodbye,

our love is lost, and we cant figure why

maybe it really is about time

that we finally made up our minds

So Darling, here's to you

i hope that when you find someone new

that she would always be true to you

to love and understand you

Soon you'll build new memories

then slowly you'd forget about me

then i would slowly be

a distant memory

*Soon i'll just be

that someone you used to know

But darling you will thank me

for letting you go

time is not for wasting

i hope you'll find your intended

But i'm sorry

that your intended isn't me

it's not an easy thing

to shake off our history

i know that's what you want from me

but they will always stay with me

i admit i made mistakes

but darling with you it's just the same

if we stay there will be more to make

i dont know how much more we can take

Darling, it would be unfair

to stay with something no longer there

but it doesn't mean i no longer care

but i'd feel like a burden you can't bear

Baby,is that how you feel...

It's ok...I will be just a memories ..

Someone You used to know...

Take care...

Please..Love...Me.....

别回答 别回答我
我爱着你 眼不能收
别回答 别回答我
我担心你 是否我太靓了
可时空变换了这么多
没了你 我心中的王国
哦~ 不愿 一切就要跟你离开
随着漩涡 渐渐沉没

爱我吧 像是你的心律动
说完了 我都不想承认心痛
忘了吧 我也不能坐在这心挂
爱我吧 爱我吧


别回答 别回答我
我爱着你 眼不能收
别回答 别回答我
我担心你 是否我太吊了
可时空变换了这么多
没了你 我心中的王国
哦~ 不愿 一切就要跟你离开
随着漩涡 渐渐沉没

爱我吧 像是你的心律动
说完了 我都不想承认心痛
忘了吧 我也不能坐在这心挂
爱我吧 爱我吧

凡人的无奈 像是一代厮守的红尘
这倒带 消失的爱追不来
去忍受
在硝烟后有难过的时候
古人曾经说过知己难求
爱我吧 像是你的心律动
说完了 我都不想承认心痛
忘了吧 我也不能坐在这心挂

爱我吧 爱我吧

Inch By Inch

I don't know what to say really.
Three minutes
to the biggest battle of our professional lives
all comes down to today.
Either
we heal
as a team
or we are going to crumble.
Inch by inch
play by play
till we're finished.
We are in hell right now, gentlemen
believe me
and
we can stay here
and get the shit kicked out of us
or
we can fight our way
back into the light.
We can climb out of hell.
One inch, at a time.

You know when you get old in life
things get taken from you.
That's, that's part of life.
But,
you only learn that when you start losing stuff.
You find out that life is just a game of inches.
So is basketball.
Because in either game
life or basketball
the margin for error is so small.
I mean
one half step too late or to early
you don't quite make it.
One half second too slow or too fast
and you don't quite catch it.
The inches we need are everywhere around us.
They are in ever break of the game
every minute, every second.

On this team, we fight for that inch
On this team, we tear ourselves, and everyone around us
to pieces for that inch.
We CLAW with our finger nails for that inch.
Cause we know
when we add up all those inches
that's going to make the fucking difference
between WINNING and LOSING
between LIVING and DYING.

I'll tell you this
in any fight
it is the guy who is willing to die
who is going to win that inch.
And I know
if I am going to have any life anymore
it is because, I am still willing to fight, and die for that inch
because that is what LIVING is.
The six inches in front of your face.

Now I can't make you do it.
You gotta look at the guy next to you.
Look into his eyes.
Now I think you are going to see a guy who will go that inch with you.
You are going to see a guy
who will sacrifice himself for this team
because he knows when it comes down to it,
you are gonna do the same thing for him.

That's a team, gentlemen
and either we heal now, as a team,
or we will die as individuals.
That's basketball guys.
That's all it is.
Now, whattaya gonna do?

I see you on this friday ,Ed...

Bad lucks do come in form of WAVE...

Its amazing how bad lucks can strucked you. As usual it comes unexpected and then start to develope a pattern or wave through out period until you wanna yell ur ass out or start to plan ur suicidal method.Well mine started last two weeks ...

Wave one came in form of suspicious and trust,

We never had any issue on this department,

Yet over-sensitive caused fear caused lies caused confession caused distrusted caused argument.

In the end, who started it or who is wrong doesn't matters,

It takes a cooling period to make sure the heated minds to think properly again.

Baby,I still love you alot..Forgive & Forget..thats our motto..

Now let put it in practise..(I am talking bout me)

No Love = sad

Wave two is the physical disabilities,

I know I am left-handed but do you have to go injured my right wrist+thumb, right knees,right 2nd toe??

Come on..I still need them in game..

It really depressing when you running out of channels/ways to undepress urself..(Even more depressing with two "depress" es in one sentence.

You having cooling period with loved one while you can't do sport.

Sitting down quietly at home does not help at all.

No love + No basketball = pathetic

Wave three hit you in your ride,

It been taunting me for 2-3 yrs of fixing that miserable bitch ..

Now I got a new ride, and after numerous hours and efforts poured on getting her and then did two bypass since its National Car..(Proton car is like re-cond branded car..), she did again..

Right the moment I was happily driving to meet my Baby, the window stucked after going down in toll.

Great timing, drove to Service Center and got it working again. Now I get fucking heart attack moment everything winding up or down the windows.

No good window= no meeting baby = no breakfast.. Fuck..

No love+No basketball+No car/security using that new car = depressed

Wave four splash you in form of your Tech tool,

Why oh why..my lappie..Oh why must u go died on the most expensive part.

Mother of all Board..cost me another RM 1000...crap..

Judging I spent nearly RM6K for this lappie...I guess another 1K ..fuck..just do it.

There goes saving plan and there goes my SG trip... (Man,this can be 5th wave)

No love+No basketball+No car/security using that new car+No money = suicidal

So, 4 of waves came through me...sigh..The fact that they come in combination of both or everything..really scary and tiring.Hitting you in all important sides (Physically,emotionally,sanity and financially)

Well, I juz pray hard that waves of good lucks is come splashing like tsunami soon.

Then again, I never believe in luck..but juz my two hands...and my brain..

Plus, Good luck usually arrive in a cup of water..juz to enough quench ur helpless thirsty throat and you like 90% near to die of de-hydration.

At that time, that small amount of water..is like life-saver ..(sound tsunamical?) ..but remember..its juz a cup..comparing with the waves..

Now where is my cup of water?

My Grown Up Birthday Wish List

I never bother to celebrate my birthday. Instead I hate it coz its like performance review. One age older and you review what have you achieved in your life and things that you plan to do but didn't, things which you wish didn't do but you did. Here my so called Grown-up Birthday Wish List

Wishes:

1. My SuperManjaAndHotBaby be healtier,happier,stronger and her family too
2. My Nuisance Mom continue to be what she is.. a nuisance..
3. My PainIntheAss Sister to get a bf/get laid..she will 4ever be pain in the ass.
4. Everyone who know me become a better person in someway or some how
5. FelixMyBestBuddy stay out of troubles...and in track of his goals.(who cares what the goals are)
6. SeanMyToutai finally ditch his gf.
7. Jane...wake up...

Plans (Life's KPI):

1. Finish Funambol R&D and create something awesome to replace the Irish Beers layer (Beers:taste good,feel good but u feel shitty after that..every single time)that been bugging my bosses.
2. IT country head/lead position - I am in for the money but the name is fucking awesome cool and surplus in pickup lines. (E.g. : Oh hi! I am  [watever field] [country name] HEAD /LEAD) 
3. Other than a cup of java : U know the caffeine in it getting me addictive but some PHP or C++ do no harm.
4. But then again, more specialised in proccesing the beans ..those make ur cup of java taste better than others.
5. Teach my NuisanceMom bout recycling and reusable shopping bag.Awareness start from home.
6. Gone Tummy Gone ...SoniaYouBitch..shut up!! I know..will buy beers for last year bet.
7. Utilising RM 6000 Lappie to the fullest.
8. RM 0 in my credit and something in my debit....
9. Basketball ..hmm..nah..i am pretty much good at that..(I give up dunk long time ago)
10. Air con ...Malaysia feels like Qatar now.
11. 6 sesampat get together!!!!!

Wants (Luxury needs):

1. Break the 5 area for salary by end of year.
2. My bluetooth Sony Stereo Bluetooth® Headset  (I hate wires nowadays)
3. Purplelish Kobe Zoom IV ( I know I got red wan)
4. Another Levi's
5. Dad getting us 42'' Bravia Z series (I add another 200 then wah lah..PS3)

And finally Thanks list:

1. My SuperSweetDecent(hahaha)Baby for being there and love me as I do..well almost all the time
2. Felix MyBuddy for staying true to me and supporting me through whatever shit.
3. Sonia YouBitch for listening to all my relationship-complaints,since you only person seeing from outside (unbiasly)
4. Sean MyToutai for all the helps and crazy times..
5. MyLeftHand for creating such impossible to stop shots..
6. My wonderfulColleagues that makes my office like a friends-outing.
7. My friends near or far, old or new....thanks for help making who I am.

Well ,wishes will be wishes , plans i can do myself  and wants is such a motivitation tools but Thanks is genuinely Thank You. Everyday ...I try to be a better person than yesterday...Out! ...Fucking uncle speech..damn..

NINE WORDS WOMEN USE

I read one email (by Racheal) about nine legendary phrases used by women. I found out my Baby and some of my female friends to utilise it from time to time. Baby... I heard all the stated phrases more than one..from u..You are the pure breed of women..hahhahaha
 (1) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up. So TRUE!!
(2) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house. Been there...really true...
(3) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fire. Aiyo..kena this during the "day" of the month...never missed..
(4) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It! My bangkok trip with guys..sigh
(5) Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.) (+_+) ....
(6) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake. Every single time I FFK her..for something else or basketball...or..didnt plan any date
(7) Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome' . That will bring on a 'whatever'). Hahahahah..so TRUE
(8) Whatever: Is a woman's way of saying F-- YOU! Hell yea..guys normally just said "FUCK YOU"
(9) Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to # 3.  I juz kena this last weekeend~~

Guys..nothing u can do about this except endure it..or find a way around it..Amuse them..entertain them..There's bound a period where we are the victims...sigh....