Setan

You really a setan,

Since I know you, always think that u "mm kan tan",

Your innocences toward the love to me,

It's so amazing till it's hard to believe.

You showed me how to love whole heartedly,

And how to be loved wholely.

I have my past, it's not pretty..

Maybe that's why i don't remember all the moments that are happy,

If its written there, I am really sorry..

Its juz part of my history...

Other than that, its juz a sad story.

Until the day, u walk into me...

Loving you is easy..

Handling you is not messy...

Understand me is the tougher part..

Coz there's still fear in ur heart.

Hurting me is the last thing u want do,

So,Losing me become option that u often want to

I told u b4 its pain make me wordy,

But understand what kind of pain in this,

Pain of not handling this better,

Even before we get together..

Now i am biting myself over my mistakes..

Hurting you while in the process..

I am really sorry to got you confuse..

But loving you nothing to be amused..

I am man that asked for nothing,

Juz wish to love you and care for well -being.

Please dun think this is too painful..

It just my mistakes for not cleaning up my fool..

Eventhough it juz a bloody blog..or a little facebook tag

I ought to cleaned up my act.

Thats the reason I wrote in paper to you,

Notes that juz specially juz for you.

Not for whole damn internet world view,

Like fucking entertainment preview..

From you I learned about privacy,

Something I ignore which is pricey..

Loving you is amazing...

Please understanding this...

Its not pain when with you...

But its pain i endure for ignorantly hurting you...

My love for you is now and real,

Bi, this is the real deal..

Every word is sincere from the heart..

I am working hard so we dun be apart..

Please Understand me..

like how you love me.